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Jan. 23rd, 2009 02:02 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
saoneSo, it seems I wasn't as alright about the whole 'being downsized and then replaced with a cheaper model' thing as I thought I was.
The really sad thing is that I had no idea I was depressed. My past bout with depression back in my late teens was of the severe 'stop staring at those pill bottles' variety that ended up with me in therapy and on Prozac. This time around it was just this general feeling of badness, and malaise. I didn't even realize I was sliding until I had this spectacular meltdown over Christmas. There was crying. Lots of crying. I hate crying.
Since I figured out what was wrong I've been trying to get back on the right track again metally. It's harder than I had hoped it would be.
I'm working on a fic for the first time in almost a year. Writing is... scary. 'Course I've always been my harshest critic.
Jeez, I think I may have met my online maudlin quota for the entire year here. I think I need chocolate after all this. ;P
The really sad thing is that I had no idea I was depressed. My past bout with depression back in my late teens was of the severe 'stop staring at those pill bottles' variety that ended up with me in therapy and on Prozac. This time around it was just this general feeling of badness, and malaise. I didn't even realize I was sliding until I had this spectacular meltdown over Christmas. There was crying. Lots of crying. I hate crying.
Since I figured out what was wrong I've been trying to get back on the right track again metally. It's harder than I had hoped it would be.
I'm working on a fic for the first time in almost a year. Writing is... scary. 'Course I've always been my harshest critic.
Jeez, I think I may have met my online maudlin quota for the entire year here. I think I need chocolate after all this. ;P
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Date: 2009-01-23 10:14 pm (UTC)So sorry for the meltdown, but delighted to see you back here again.
Writing is scary . . . but also therapeutic, hopefully!
*hugs again*
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Date: 2009-01-25 05:54 am (UTC)Mmmm, yes I find thinking up stories about pretty boys very therapeutic. ;D